~2010-2013:
Before I knew of tarot and the occult, in high school and early college, I visited churches as a guest. Either with friends or out of curiosity.
Although I was not a Christian, I felt the warm embrace of the Holy Spirit.
God’s presence felt safe and loving.
I did not believe what they believed, but I loved the idea of Jesus.
The Holy Spirit revealed to me…
September 2020:
I bought my first tarot deck, and gave myself my own first tarot card reading,
I heard a soft, quiet whisper,
“Don’t do it”
I did not listen.
November 2021:
I had dinner with a Christian who prayed for us before eating. Instead of that warm embrace I felt before, I felt a combination of stone cold rejection and pride.
I felt like my Christian friend was lost and ignorant, believing a lie. I felt proud for attaining secret knowledge and wisdom. I felt like I knew more, because I discovered these hidden answers through my spiritual experiences, studies and meditations.
February 2022:
I met with a group of hare krishnas and we chanted mantras to worship krishna.
They told me that krishna was christ, the same as Jesus. Yet, that first day we chanted, I felt a coldness in my heart.
My friend expressed “I feel like I am cheating on Jesus”
I felt the same way, a hardness and strange uncomfortable sensation in my heart,
But out loud, I projected “It isn’t wrong to love Jesus, but it is wrong to tell others to love only one god”
That coldness in my heart went away fairly quickly, the more I chanted.
I was wrong and deceived. I later admitted to my friend that I was wrong for saying that, and I was projecting.
I repent for worshipping many gods that are not the true Christ, Jesus.
I reflected.
I had to ask myself the hard questions.
Why did I feel such a coldness in my heart?
If God is all one and all love, why did I feel that love with every single deity except for Jesus?
Why did I so strongly reject Jesus when I once felt love in His presence?
March 2022:
I studied astrology with a friend. My first tarot deck came from Doreen Virtue.
We had a brief conversation about how she “lost her mind and became a Christian”.
We did not dive any deeper, nor question why that happened.
April 2022:
I was reading tarot at the women’s expo, and across from me were sister nuns. I had the feeling inside “they think I am working for the enemy but I know we are all on the same team”
They asked me how did I know who I was communicating with? I told them I only communicated with light spirits. They did not condemn me nor rebuke me. They gave me resources on how to discern the spirits. We prayed together.
2020-2022:
I practiced yoga and meditation every day. At first I only needed a little bit to get by: 10-15 minutes.
Then it became more and more a dependency: 1-2 hours in the morning and 1-2 hours at night, and meditation throughout the day.
I attempted to live in a state of presence and meditation, but then the spiritual attacks only got worse.
Matthew 12: 43-45
“When an impure spirit comes out of a person, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, ‘I will return to the house I left.’ When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that person is worse than the first. That is how it will be with this wicked generation.”
July 2022:
I was reading the Bhagavad Gita and dog sitting a very well behaved dog.
I was not gone for long, and the dog devoured that book. He did not destroy anything else. Only that book.
August 2022:
I believed this was a sign from God, and I began to investigate. I began to seek Jesus again, but continued my routine practices of yoga, meditation, chanting mantras to hindu gods, practicing tarot, and astrology. Commence spiritual warfare.
September 2022:
I began praying and searching for a church that taught about the true Jesus from The Bible (not an ear tickling, false, people-pleasing, Jesus like I used to believe).
September 2022:
I started to actually read The Bible.
So many people have different things to say about The Bible, but I never read it for myself.
The Bible is the living, breathing word of God. God revealed Himself to me through His word and convicted me of my sins.
I repented and gave Jesus my life September 24.
2 Timothy 3:16-17:
All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.
October 2022:
God brought me to Hill Country Bible Church.
October 23: I got baptized at Hill Country Bible Church!
October 23, 2022
Baptism
March 2023:
I had a dream about having a conversation with a demon.
The one I talked to was blue, with spiky teeth, and had scales.
They were possessing people and making them commit sexual sins.
She said to me, “We know Jesus is going to win, we are trying to bring as much destruction, bring as many people to sin, do as much evil as we can in the meanwhile.”
Ephesians 6:12
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.
May 2023:
Another dream: demons try to convince us that they are not so bad and have our best interest. They are misunderstood, etc.
THIS IS A LIE FROM THE ENEMY!
Psychic and tarot readings change the trajectory of where our lives could go.
If we open those doors and trust our enemies, they will lead us further away from God.
SIN SEPARATES US FROM GOD!
Do not trust in demons!
Demons hate us, because they hate Jesus.
They hate us because we are created in God’s image, and demons want to bring us death.
TRUST IN JESUS. HE LIVED AND DIED FOR US!
Revelation 12:9
And the great dragon was thrown down, that ancient serpent, who is called the devil and Satan, the deceiver of the whole world—he was thrown down to the earth, and his angels were thrown down with him.
John 8:32
And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.